Dear Mom

*this is going to be a very long post, you have been told*

We take many things for granted, one of which is, in my opinion, our mothers. Do we really care and respect them the way we should? I’m sure not all of us do. I myself am guilty of that act. I’m not really what some would call the perfect daughter. I throw tantrums and even show the ‘I very tarak syok you now’ face to my mom. I guess I’m far from being a good daughter. I’ve watched Super Junior’s LeeTeuk and EunHyuk’s live broadcast radio today and it hit me that not all of us are blessed with a complete family and some have lost their mothers at a young age.

Mothers’ Day was over a few weeks ago and I wasn’t able to write anything regarding it. So I will now dedicate this post, like what I’ve done several times before, to all mothers and daughters who are reading this. Please listen to the song I’ve embedded in this post. Thank you.




For some reason, today feels so difficult and exhausting
I hold my pillow closer as I sit alone in my room
I fidget with my phone as my heart
For some reason feels empty today
The suddenly ringing phone surprises me
I hear your voice, asking me if I ate today
Although at times, they annoyed me, today those words feel different
And all the forgotten promises I've made come flooding back to me

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

Although at times, I hurt you because of my wrong decisions
You quietly watched over me from afar
Although I'm still a young and clumsy child
I think I understand now
The meaning of your silent prayers

I will become a warm hearted person
I will become a person that puts others first
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
The person who I share my dreams with
The one who used to comb my hair, I think of my mom

What should I do? My heart is still so small
If I let go of your hand, I'm not sure if I can make it without you
I don't think I'm ready yet
And I'm scared

I will become a wise daughter
Give me courage
No matter where I go, I will be a daughter you can be proud of
I will fulfill the wishes of your love
With all the love that you have shown me
I will have a warm heart
I was too shy to express this to you clearly
Mom, I truly love you

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Just like what the lyrics say, I truly wish I could be a better daughter than what I am now. Even though I don't say it out very often but deep down, I really love my mom. And I will find a way to repay all her kindness and love she has shown me through the years.