I have somebody that i like

I have somebody that I like,

But I cannot tell that person my feelings

Because it is out of the norms

Because the person I like is a girl

I’m not sure of my feelings yet

But I really do like her

I can never tell her that

She has a boyfriend

And she’s slightly homophobe

We talk, we laugh, we share funny stories about ourselves

I enjoy her company a lot

And I think she enjoys mine too

I cannot imagine being invited to her wedding in the future

That is, if she invites me at all

I cannot bear to see her marrying another man

If only I were a boy

I’d fight for her

I can still fight for her

But it is a battle I’m sure to lose

Because this isn’t a fanfic

Not everybody approves of this sort of love

So I guess

Just having her around me for the next two years would be fine

I’m contented with this arrangement

I almost cried thinking that she’s never mine

I’m fine with just being friends

At least I’m able to be with her

I’m sure I won’t forget this

I mean

Who forgets their first college crush?