I have somebody that I like,
But I cannot tell that person my feelings
Because it is out of the norms
Because the person I like is a girl
I’m not sure of my feelings yet
But I really do like her
I can never tell her that
She has a boyfriend
And she’s slightly homophobe
We talk, we laugh, we share funny stories about ourselves
I enjoy her company a lot
And I think she enjoys mine too
I cannot imagine being invited to her wedding in the future
That is, if she invites me at all
I cannot bear to see her marrying another man
If only I were a boy
I’d fight for her
I can still fight for her
But it is a battle I’m sure to lose
Because this isn’t a fanfic
Not everybody approves of this sort of love
So I guess
Just having her around me for the next two years would be fine
I’m contented with this arrangement
I almost cried thinking that she’s never mine
I’m fine with just being friends
At least I’m able to be with her
I’m sure I won’t forget this
I mean
Who forgets their first college crush?
