I Don't

One of my friends told me something this morning that totally made my day. He/She said that I’m really awesome that I don’t talk about Kpop to people who aren’t interested in it. Well, being a little SS, I was really happy. Why? Cause it’s not every day you get complimented and I don’t get one very often (I’m not implying anything with that sentence).

If any of you are wondering why I don’t do that, it’s because of my anime frenzy a few years back that I’ve established this habit of keeping things to myself or only sharing them with those who like them.

When I was younger (about 5years ago?), I got into an anime frenzy. I literally fell in love with anime and all things related to it. I was an otaku, an anime freak, so I tend to go on and on about anime and I’ve noticed that a lot of my friends don’t like it. To make things worse, I’ve actually fought with my friends because they couldn’t stand my constant anime ramblings.

It took me a while to realize that not everybody was willing to listen to my ramblings so the habit of keeping things to myself started around when I was 15 I guess? I hid most of my excitement and emotions whenever possible.
I hid even more when I shifted from anime to Kpop. I understand that not everybody likes kpop and so I don’t tell everybody about news and what not about it. I only tell those who knows about it and are willing to listen to my endless ramblings about a certain group (kekeke).

So, yea; my conclusion: I know it can get annoying when others talk about things that you don’t understand and you’re stuck listening to it. I personally don’t like it when others do that so I try my best not to do it myself. Though, I’m not sure if I managed to do it, so if I didn’t and it got on your nerves, I’m really sorry. -bows-


(just for fun, but this is a real screencap from fb ya, i jsut removed the picture and name)

Sincerity

When you said you missed me,

I obviously doubted the sincerity in your words.

You said you can’t wait till I get back;

Again,

I detect lies and insincere words.

When you smile,

I can see it’s not genuine.

Why?

Because if it were,

You wouldn’t be driving me off the Great Wall of China!

I have had it with you.

Don’t expect me to help you,

At least not with my own freewill

Whatever I did,

You questioned.

Whatever I wanted,

You wanted.

Whatever you did,

I could care less.

If possible,

I don’t even want to see you.

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A/N: Don't worry, I'm not refering to any of you. ^_^ don't so perasan la..kekeke

Whiners...aish..

In life, I think a lot of us would know it by now; things don’t always go the way we want them to. if they did, then that isn’t life anymore.

"In life we are tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism, and even senseless tragedies."

~Tiffany Hwang Mi Young, Oh! [The Second Album], 2010~

I personally like that line a lot. I’ve quoted from Tiffany many times and I really do think that she makes a lot of sense with just that one line.

Anyway, back to the topic. Life is not about having things go your way; it’s about embracing whatever it is that comes your way. You can’t really expect to have everything the way you want it. You can’t whine just because you didn’t get what you want. And you obviously cannot show that kind of ‘I’m going to cry’ face to me when you want things done your way. I absolutely cannot stand people who do that.

When people do that to me ( as in show me that kind of face), I interpret it as such: they’re weak. They can’t use a better excuse to allow people to do things their way. They can only use their face to make others do things the way they want. They don’t have the least bit of sense in them that others might not like it.

When people do that to me, I really don’t like it. Seriously, I don’t like it. And there’s little I can do about it seeing how I cannot afford to offend them. This stinks.

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*ahem* rather off topic but...HOOT MV IS OUT!!! WOOHOO!!! haha

(Siwon looks really cool here ^^)

Midterms yet again...

Well, the time for midterms has finally come and all of us are busy scrambling around trying to get as much info jammed into our brains as possible before our tests at 6.30pm on their designated days.

My midterms officially started on Monday with Marketing. I have to say, out of so many subjects and the many tests I have taken so far in my studying life, this would be the paper that I have very little confidence in. why you may ask? As some of you may know, I attended my cousin’s wedding dinner in KL last weekend and it took up quite a big amount of time from my studying schedule (not that I really adhere to the schedule anyway). But still, quite a lot of time was taken out and I had to squeeze as much info as I can in a considerably short amount of time.

~sigh~

I have done my best, now all that’s left to do is to see if my best was good enough.

Then earlier this evening, I had my English midterm test. I wasn’t worried about it as much I did about Marketing. For one thing, English can be considered as my forte here in college. It was a subject that I don’t have to worry about as often or as much compared to the other subjects like Economics, Maths and Computing Tech. I’m not being cocky, just stating what’s in my mind.

Next week is going to be far worst. Economics and Computing Tech back to back, one on Tuesday and the other on Wednesday. And our lecturer told us that CT is going to be a tough one since many said the quiz we had last week was a piece of cake. Gawd! Those people who said that on FB are real idiots. Even if it was a piece of cake, you don’t go around announcing it to the whole world!

Econs, I have no comment since that subject hated me in sem1. But I get the feeling that we’re getting along quite well now. I’m understanding the subject better now compared to the first semester, partly because I’m actually reading the text a bit here and there and I think it’s helping me to understand better.

Broken Heels

Walking in heels is so not fun, especially if you’re a complete newbie and to make things worse, the very first pair of heels I own happened to be a freaking 4-inched heels. Wearing them while sitting down is totally no problem at all. The problem arises when I arise from my seat.

Last weekend I attended my cousin’s wedding in KL and I had no other pair of footwear to wear except for that silver pair of heels. I took the challenge and brought them to my dorm where I could practice walking two weeks before the dinner. Walking in my room, or pacing in my room, is completely different than walking in them for an hour in a huge lobby of a really big hotel.

Me walking in heels can be said to be a funny sight, my cousin personally gave me a comment that I walk funny in them; which I totally admit, is totally true. It was awkward beyond imagination that I myself felt like taking them off and walk around barefooted. I did bring my pair of flats with me to the city but I left it in my dad’s car boot. (You see, my uncle drove us there cause my mom didn’t want to drive, fearing that we’ll get lost).

That dinner started around 8 but we were there about an hour earlier for cocktail. Standing there for an hour was really killing my feet and my mom even asked me to walk around with my cousin and sister to take some pictures of the lobby. My elder cousin sister didn’t even notice that I was in heels until we reached the stairs. Guess my awkward walking is even worst when it comes to stairs. But I can say, going up is so much easier than going down. My legs were shaking with each step I took because I was afraid of tripping.

Funny thing happened during the ‘yum seng’, my right heel broke. It sort of snapped in half yet it wasn’t completely broken. I blame the cushiony carpet. But then again, it could be my awkward footing when I wanted to get up from my seat. So can you imagine me struggling to keep my balance with one side higher than the other? I myself found it funny and was hoping very hard that nobody realized that I was walking with one broken heel (my slacks was pretty long so hopefully, it covered the broken part).

Welcoming a Friend

Hey guys, one of my good friends recently started a blog! It would be awesome if you guys can go check it out and leave her a comment ^^

Comments are love and please try not to silent read ya.

It's All THe RAY-Ge In Life

Frustrations

Well, as some of you might know I recently posted some notes on FB titles ’25 things you might or might not know about me’ and I got comments saying that it’s scary. I don’t know why but I’ll just accept that it is.

In those notes, I revealed some facts about myself that I don’t think I have told anybody before. One of them would be not to call me for the sake of calling and not have anything in particular to tell me. I really dislike it when people do that.
I have my own personal schedule that I have planned, either it is written down and sticky-noted to my room’s wall or it is already constructed in my head. I plan to follow the plans and one call can ruin the whole thing. One call is enough to throw everything off schedule and ruin the entire night. I could’ve been studying, I could’ve completed some unfinished business but no, I’m stuck on a call in which the caller has nothing much to say and the both of us are doing our own work while the call is still going on.

I know people won’t call unless there’s something they want to tell me. I understand that. But please, once you’re done and you have nothing else to say, please let me be on my way. Don’t keep me there waiting for you to say something and if I were to say something, your response would be short and sometimes I don’t get a response at all. You’re clearly not paying any attention to the conversation at all so what’s the point?

And another thing, I really don’t want to sleep late so I would really appreciate it if people wouldn’t call when it’s nearing midnight. I get really cranky the next day and mind you, as I’m typing this, I’m already cranky. I have a big list of things to do and I have very little time to finish them. Why? Well, I blame my education background for this. Don’t ask, I won’t tell.

I sincerely apologise to those who feel offended or feels that this is directed towards them. I did not mention any names so I am not going to answer to any accusation.

*Yes, I am very cranky/tension/stressed now. Just let me be and I'll be fine in the next post*

Used to..

After several years (since form 2 i think?) of listening to foreign language songs like Japanese and Korean songs, this afternoon, I went back to recapture my childhood and looked up some old English songs that I hear on the radio all the time when I was little.

It was an afternoon of reminiscence as I listen to those songs. Memories came flooding back as I pictured myself sitting in the car on the way home or going on a trip with my family. I didn’t really know what the titles of the songs were but I could remember the chorus. My common sense told me that most song titles are in the chorus and let the search on YT begin.

I only found a few songs so far, downloaded them, too. I can’t really remember the rest, which is quite disappointing. I have to go home and ransack my old cassettes to get the title of the songs and also the artist’s name. Then I’ll start my downloading session again. ^^

Here are some of my recommendations (though it’s quite unnecessary but I like sharing, sharing is caring. So be it. haha)



Carly Simon - You're So Vain



The Archies - Sugar Sugar
(I looked high and low for this song because I've never heard the whole song before, only the chorus. I used to wait for the radio to broadcast this song but it was rare.)



Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You

Some people just don't get it

Perhaps I’m being a bit late, blogging about an event which took place almost 4 months ago. Some may think ‘wow, this kid really has nothing better else to do than to write about something which happened 4 months ago?’ Well people, I really have nothing better else to do than to write this, so please bear with me.

I can say that it was rather uneventful this year, seeing how I’m not at home anymore and in college with my new found friends and all. The only close friend I had there wasn’t even in the same course as I am so I can’t rely on her all the time. I wasn’t expecting anything big neither was I expecting anybody to do something special for me like what my friends had done in the previous years back home. I wasn’t expecting anything but what they did was beyond my expectations.

You guys wanna know what happened? They completely ignored me for the rest of the day. No special treatments whatsoever. Lunch was pathetic enough but dinner took it to a whole new level. Not to mention the dessert at the end was a sorry excuse for a dessert. I was disappointed, I’m not going to lie; I really was disappointed. They thought that my surprising me with that dessert everything was going to be ok? No way man! I was so disappointed that day because it didn’t feel like the ones before it at all.

If you were to compare what happened 4 months ago with what had happened in the last two years, it would look downright sad. Two years ago, my friends gave me something really special and the year after that they did it again. I was really happy and touched that they are willing to go through all the trouble to plan and do it. It was a success; we had tones of fun and loads of laughter. Though we had a few minor arguments about food but it was all worth it. We spent the rest of the night chit chatting and sharing silly stories with each other.

I seriously am not expecting anybody to do anything for me, but then, at least please don’t let me feel disappointed on that day of all days in the year.

How are you?

One was my roommate and the other was also my roommate, one of younger than me by a year while the other was by a few months. I miss the both of them very much. One is hyper and energetic while the other is a bit more calm and composed.

I meet one of them in 2006, she was younger than me. We weren’t in the same group but yet we were put together in the same room, which was kinda odd since they usually separate dorms according to groups. My group’s dorm ran out of space so I had to crash in another group’s dorm, which I am really grateful that I did. At first, I wasn’t that keen in going to another group’s dorm but I guess I made the right choice. I really like that kid, we chatted often online but then, she went MIA and I haven’t heard from her since 2008. Still, I can remember the funny times we had. Like once, during our last night there, she was making a huge fuss that she had no more clean clothes to wear for the closing ceremony the next day. she went out of the room and came back bursting through the door, with a shirt in one hand and pants in the other, jumping with joy saying ‘yay! I got clean clothes!’ how cute.

The other, I meet in 2008 and since we were the same age, we clicked better. I looked back at one of my posts before this and I’ve already written about her so I don’t think I’ll go any further. Though I think I would seeing how I’m quite long winded. She was in a different course than me, so there were times when she’ll be alone in the room for a few nights and then it’s my turn to be home alone for a few nights. It was really boring not having her around, since we usually talk before going to bed and stuff like that. I still remember her telling me that she likes pears, and I actually saved her one and placed it on her bed. I didn't bother about if she was going to eat it because I was going to be away for the next two nights. But she said it was sweet and juicy. I don’t think we’ve ever debated on who should bath first since I always let her go first. When we were having our training session, we would walk over to the dorm opposite our’s to bath since the bathroom on our floor only had one shower. She taught me many silly and fun games (which sadly, I have forgotten most of it by now) she learnt from her course.

I miss the two of you a lot, do you know that? I doubt it. I practically lost contact with you two months after our camp ended. This is so sad. You’re on my msn, my facebook and I even have the links to your blog and yet, we just stopped talking.

How are you? I wish you two well.

oh...i think i get it..then again...maybe not?

I’ve been away from home for around ten months now and I say, it can be fun and it can be totally miserable sometimes. At first, sure it’s fun being out without having parents control your every movement but then again, after some time, you’ll start to miss it.

As some of you might know, I’m not the kind of person to get homesick. I’ve never been the type to get so homesick until I cry at night. No, I am definitely not that kind of person. Perhaps in another’s eyes, I am the kind of person that is tough and needs little help. Partially true since I am also human I cannot do everything on my own. I need help from time to time.

Back in 2008, I attended a 14-day camp in OBS. At first I felt nothing but when I took some time to think, I thought ‘wow, it’s going to be two weeks before I see my parents again.’ When I told my instructor that, she was ‘aw..Zhi Ying is homesick.’ I was shocked at her comment. So that was what homesick is, the feeling of wanting to see your family. I finally understood what homesick was, and it took me 16 years.

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So…what do you guys think of the new layout? haha

Favours

One thing I’ve noticed is that some people just don’t know how to ask for favours properly. It’s a relatively simple process, is it not? Some just can’t grasp the concept. You need to ask for favours properly so that the person you’re asking from will be more than happy to do it for you. Don’t go barging in on the person and say ‘help me with _____‘ and then walk off. That’s not nice and the person you’re asking favours from might get pissed off.

Asking for favours properly is easy. The key thing to remember is not to automatically think that the person you’re asking from will say yes. A lot of people do that, they think that the person will say yes right away and therefore, do not bother to ask properly. People, it’s wrong, you cannot go around assuming that others will do favours for you. Even if that person is a really nice friend, you still have to ask properly and wait for the answer.

And if the person says no, don’t take it to heart. Maybe that person is not available or is a bit too tired to help. Don’t go around saying ‘that person is so bad, can’t even help me with this tiny thing.’ That’s bad. Don’t do that, all right? If that person says no, just say it’s ok and get on with your life. If you wanna reschedule, ask first. Don’t assume.

Gosh, people nowadays really need to learn how to ask for favours properly.

That's just my opinion.

The things i used to do

I was squealing like the fangirl that I am when I saw this performance a few months ago. This is a fancam of their concert in Shanghai. Funny how an old song like this can have such an awesome feel being sung in a concert! I totally love this performance!

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I sang this song on the bus on the way up to Cameron last month and did me and my friend had a laugh when I reach one particular line.

I’m a Barbie girl, in Barbie world
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic.

My friend was giving me that ‘I dare you to continue’ look, and I wouldn’t dare to? haha

You can brush my hair, undress me everywhere.

‘oh my gosh, I can’t believe you actually sang that line!’ Rachel burst laughing and I followed soon after.

Then just a few days ago, I was streaming an online radio and the DJ was asking the listeners what she should sing. Some asked for Beautiful Restriction and others asked for Barbie Girl. The DJ sang both but the way she sang Barbie Girl was so funny!

…you can brush my hair, mmmm everywhere

I totally LOL-ed when she did that

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This song reminded me of my childhood; the days that I went to Installation Night as a kid and danced with the Interactors on the dance floor to this song.

Of Jeans and Skirts (and the occasional dresses)

Dresses, why are there such a thing called dresses? Why is it that girls are expected to wear dresses and skirts? Why were they invented in the first place? Can’t women in those days wear pants too? Pants are so much more convenient and not to mention comfortable. Girls can run and jump as much as they want in pants and shorts.

As a kid, I stopped wearing those dresses and skirts when I reached a certain age, around 8 or 9 I think? I found shorts much more comfortable than those dresses and skirts and it didn’t help that I was quite a tomboy when I was younger. I had successfully avoided wearing any dresses or skirts with exception of my school uniform. That couldn’t be helped.

Every Chinese New Year, my aunts would make a fuss as to why was I in jeans again and not in a skirt. Does it really matter? I don’t think so. But to them, they already stereotyped that girls must wear dresses and skirts. It really did annoy the heck out of me that I had to hear that question every year. But, I had to bear with it. There was nothing I can do about it. So I just let them be and went along with my own business and activities. Nobody bothered me about the topic anymore.

That is, until..

Now that I’m older (last year to be exact), my friends were insisting that I wore a dress to an annual dinner held by the school’s board. I didn’t want to, I wasn’t used to the idea of me in a dress (and I still am not). So they took me shopping for a dress and a pair of (killer) heels. Wore them once, and I don’t think I’m going to touch them again.

Oh, how I miss being a kid when I can use my age as an excuse to wear jeans and t-shirt to dinners!!!!

Panda Eyes

It’s been a while.

These past few days had been tiring to say the least. I came up with a conclusion within that few days that my body needs a really long rest period to recharge after an exhausting activity. As most of you know, I went to the city last weekend and walked 2 malls with my bag pack luggage on my shoulders and carrying a really heavy book that I bought. I’m not complaining about my book, don’t get me wrong. I’m just saying that it’s really tiring doing that.

When we got back from the city on Sunday evening, my house mates and I were too tired and lazy to go out for dinner and we had cup noodles and fruits. That night, I had my ‘opening ceremony’ of my precious book. Ok, I know I sound lame, but, I do have my reasons. 1. I’m a really big fan of them. 2. I’ve been wanting to buy the book since June. 3. I could’ve opened the book in the city but I reprimanded myself from doing so (I was afraid that it’ll be damaged on the way back). 4. That book is huge and there’s a DVD in it which I’ve been dying to watch (though I’ve already watched it on YT thanks to those who pre-ordered the book online).

Thanks to the excitement of the book, I slept late, around midnight or so. And that was so not good considering I slept at 2am ++ the night before and woke up around 7.30am the next morning.

And when Monday came and it was time to get back to college, I was dead tired. My eyes could barely keep themselves open during Economics lecture and English lecture. I had a Maths lecture that day but it wasn’t that hard to keep awake since I kept myself busy by doing the examples in the slides. Tuesday was worst because I had a lecture at 8am; Economics again. But this time, thank goodness for technical difficulty with the projector, class started almost 30minutes late and I used that 30minutes to catch some Zs. So I was pretty fresh during that lecture.

So lesson to be learnt from the trip is >>>

Do not sleep late if you just came back from a tiring trip and have classes the next day. ^^


(their japanese MV for Gee came out yesterday ^^)