It’s been almost 6 months now since this page was started under the request of my friend. Looking back at my previous posts, I realized that, as time passed, my posts were becoming more and more sentimental and definitely getting longer. Why longer? Well, I typed it in Word then I transfer it to the blog.
Why more sentimental? I came to realize that I’m getting older and as I do, I tend to hold on to pass memories tighter than usual. The thoughts of me leaving my hometown to study in another town and not being able to see my beloved friends again scared me at one point. However, I’ve gotten over that point. I’m no longer afraid to let go but yet, I can’t help but hold back the last few precious memories which I cherish most.
How can you let go of something which had already been deemed ‘precious’ in your heart? The days we spent talking nonsense in class or in some random venue we picked will be forever cherished and the conflicts we had in our group will continue to serve as guidance for me to make judgments and decisions in the future.
I grew up knowing very little of how harsh and cruel the world can be. All of you have helped open my eyes and to see the world in a whole new perspective. I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart though I’m not sure whether how many of you actually bother to read this anyways.
Thank you.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
psk..do you?
Do you know who I am?
Do you know who you are?
Do you know what are my true feelings?
Do you know your own feelings?
You don’t?
Don’t worry,
Cause I don’t too.
Humans are complex creatures.
Nobody can confidently say that they understand themselves completely.
So don’t worry,
It’s perfectly ok if you don’t understand yourself completely.
Life is short,
So don’t worry that head of yours with stuff like this.
Once you really think about it,
It’s not that worth it.
So just let everyday slid like that,
Things will be much simpler that way.
Trust me.
Do you know who you are?
Do you know what are my true feelings?
Do you know your own feelings?
You don’t?
Don’t worry,
Cause I don’t too.
Humans are complex creatures.
Nobody can confidently say that they understand themselves completely.
So don’t worry,
It’s perfectly ok if you don’t understand yourself completely.
Life is short,
So don’t worry that head of yours with stuff like this.
Once you really think about it,
It’s not that worth it.
So just let everyday slid like that,
Things will be much simpler that way.
Trust me.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Can You Hear Me?
It’s been quite a while since we last met, hasn’t it? Almost 2 years I think. How you’ve been? Good I hope. It seems the both of us won’t be seeing each other for another long while, since, we’re both from different places and we’re constantly busy with school work. It’s difficult for us to meet. I go to your town pretty often, I guess? However, you don’t come to mine at all. I don’t blame you, you don’t have any connection with this place at all. It’s not like you have any relatives staying here or anything of that sort.
You came here around 1 and a half years ago to attend a camp, we met there. Though, I wasn’t supposed to be at your course, I went to help out since they were short of hand. I was very happy that I went, I met so many wonderful new friends there, including you of course.
I only knew you for 2 weeks, there’s still many things about you that I do not know. We became friends, I felt sad when I had to leave. I took one last look back and I saw you waving at me from the first floor. There was a part of me that didn’t want to leave until you did, but, I knew that was not going to happen.
Will I see you again? Who knows? It might be years from now or we’ll bump into each other when I’m in town. I do hope it happens.
I miss you.
You came here around 1 and a half years ago to attend a camp, we met there. Though, I wasn’t supposed to be at your course, I went to help out since they were short of hand. I was very happy that I went, I met so many wonderful new friends there, including you of course.
I only knew you for 2 weeks, there’s still many things about you that I do not know. We became friends, I felt sad when I had to leave. I took one last look back and I saw you waving at me from the first floor. There was a part of me that didn’t want to leave until you did, but, I knew that was not going to happen.
Will I see you again? Who knows? It might be years from now or we’ll bump into each other when I’m in town. I do hope it happens.
I miss you.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Searching For You
I wondered around a large complex searching for you. My legs were aching and my stomach was churning, and yet, I was never gave up searching for you. I’ve been looking for you since the beginning of the year. Sadly, I never found you. I wanted you so badly that I was willing to spend any amount of money just to have you.
Upon receiving a conformation text message that you were in the building, I quickened my pace as I made my way up to the 5th floor to look for you. The text directed me to a small corner of the building and then, there you are. I’ve found you, at long last. I had a huge grin plastered across my face and I looked idiotic but I didn’t care one bit. The most important thing is, I’ve found what I was looking for after almost 6months of search. I was thrilled when I finally found you. I wanted to get your sister too but I was in dilemma every since she came out in February. In the end, I chose you over the other.
I have no regrets. Perhaps, just a little that I didn’t get you both. Seeing how I had enough funding to do so in the first place. Never mind, the next trip there, I will get the other for sure.
Call me a fanatic, I don’t care. All I care about is having a blast doing the thing that I like most. In this case, I finally found the one thing I’ve been searching for for the past few months.
It didn’t bother me one bit that I had to spend almost RM100 on you. It didn’t bother me one bit.
Curious of what I’m referring to? I’m now a proud owner of a beautiful album and a poster! ^^
Now, I can finally consider myself a real SONE. Oh! You’re finally mine.
Upon receiving a conformation text message that you were in the building, I quickened my pace as I made my way up to the 5th floor to look for you. The text directed me to a small corner of the building and then, there you are. I’ve found you, at long last. I had a huge grin plastered across my face and I looked idiotic but I didn’t care one bit. The most important thing is, I’ve found what I was looking for after almost 6months of search. I was thrilled when I finally found you. I wanted to get your sister too but I was in dilemma every since she came out in February. In the end, I chose you over the other.
I have no regrets. Perhaps, just a little that I didn’t get you both. Seeing how I had enough funding to do so in the first place. Never mind, the next trip there, I will get the other for sure.
Call me a fanatic, I don’t care. All I care about is having a blast doing the thing that I like most. In this case, I finally found the one thing I’ve been searching for for the past few months.
It didn’t bother me one bit that I had to spend almost RM100 on you. It didn’t bother me one bit.
Curious of what I’m referring to? I’m now a proud owner of a beautiful album and a poster! ^^
Now, I can finally consider myself a real SONE. Oh! You’re finally mine.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Blink, Blink, Blink
Blink, blink, blink and semester one ended. Time flew by fast, scarily fast. Exams were over and there was nothing else left to do but to pack up and go home. But what fun would it be to just leave campus after exams end? A celebration was needed to release all the tension built up during the week. So that was exactly what a bunch of friends did. Two days after the exams ended, they made their way to the heart of the country, for a shopping spree to get their minds of college life and to officially begin their holiday.
It was like any morning in Kampar, wake up at 6am and get ready to face the day. Wash up and then spend some time with my dear for a while before I had to leave for the entire day and return pass midnight.
We left at 8.30 and arrived in the big city sometime after 10. It amazed me at how short the journey was. It was fun travelling by bus again after many months. Thank goodness I didn’t get motion sickness like the time we went to Penang for our Moral trip. Oh, I can still remember the nauseating ride! One thing different though, I had nobody to spazz over songs with. Normally on trips, I would be sitting with Rachel and the both of us will be spazzing over songs in my mp3. This trip was a bit different as obviously, she wasn’t part of it.
We were dropped off at a place called Majid Jamek, I think? I’m not very sure. then we bought train tickets for our ride back to Kampar which cost rm20 per ticket. Expensive, no? well, the economic class was full and there’s nothing we could do about it. after that, we walked to Pasar Seni station and lrt-ed to Hang Tuah where we then walked to Times Square for lunch and shopping round 1 before proceeding to Sg Wang plaza for round 2. We then had dinner there and walked back to Times Square for round 3 and then made our way back to Masjid Jamek.
A/N>> I know it sound boring, this is just the summary of the trip. Part 2 will be coming up soon, that is, after I get a damn good night’s sleep and recover from stupid flu. Aish. I hate flu!!!
btw, for those who are wondering, A/N stands for Author's Note. something i learnt from the authors at a forum.
It was like any morning in Kampar, wake up at 6am and get ready to face the day. Wash up and then spend some time with my dear for a while before I had to leave for the entire day and return pass midnight.
We left at 8.30 and arrived in the big city sometime after 10. It amazed me at how short the journey was. It was fun travelling by bus again after many months. Thank goodness I didn’t get motion sickness like the time we went to Penang for our Moral trip. Oh, I can still remember the nauseating ride! One thing different though, I had nobody to spazz over songs with. Normally on trips, I would be sitting with Rachel and the both of us will be spazzing over songs in my mp3. This trip was a bit different as obviously, she wasn’t part of it.
We were dropped off at a place called Majid Jamek, I think? I’m not very sure. then we bought train tickets for our ride back to Kampar which cost rm20 per ticket. Expensive, no? well, the economic class was full and there’s nothing we could do about it. after that, we walked to Pasar Seni station and lrt-ed to Hang Tuah where we then walked to Times Square for lunch and shopping round 1 before proceeding to Sg Wang plaza for round 2. We then had dinner there and walked back to Times Square for round 3 and then made our way back to Masjid Jamek.
A/N>> I know it sound boring, this is just the summary of the trip. Part 2 will be coming up soon, that is, after I get a damn good night’s sleep and recover from stupid flu. Aish. I hate flu!!!
btw, for those who are wondering, A/N stands for Author's Note. something i learnt from the authors at a forum.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Whacky Senior Year
What’s school life without tuition classes? I’m sure not many students can actually say that he/she has never attended one before. No matter how laid back you are in your studies, your parents will force to attend those classes. In this little girl’s case, it’s not that much of a difference. You see, ever since I was a kid, I was sent to tuition class. I can still remember my first class during year 1, it was so boring that I personally told the teacher I quit after a few months. Guess I had a short attention span since then.
Tuition classes are quite inevitable back in high school. The word tuition will appear on my schedule every single day of the week during my last couple of years in high school. But, I soon realized that tuition isn’t all bad, I get to socialize with my friends and even had hilarious incidences together while in tuition.
One of my favourite classes was Chemistry class during final year. We had tones of laugh and the mood is always very light there and sitting in front of two really cute people didn’t help me to concentrate at all. Those two were like clowns in their own little world. They would chat and I would eavesdrop. I know it’s wrong but their conversations are really interesting and I couldn’t help but chuckle every now and then. Of course, I manage to fix that bad habit as the super huge, super scary exam was approaching. One of them even snapped my back (if you get what I mean). Oh the pain!! And she always catches me of guard as she snaps it. The whole class would be staring at me after I yelp in pain. They even mentioned it in my birthday card that year. It’s so embarrassing!
Tuition classes are like challenges, especially when you have no idea what the heck the teacher is talking about. For instance, accounts class. Boy was I one severe blur case sitting in the second row beside my tomodachi. I actually spent more time chit chatting and playing a fool rather than trying to learn accounts. What amazed me was my results. Can you believe a blur case like me can get an A? Hard to believe right? I still can’t though. I mean, I was the class clown during accounts and my tomodachi should know better. She sat right beside me on my right. I lost count on how many times I ‘sembah’-ed her for letting me copy her homework. I know, I’m bad. Most of the time, she’ll be teaching me but sometimes, the both of us would be blur cases sitting behind the ‘salted fish’ (get what I mean?)
I seriously don’t mind going through those two classes again if it meant being with you again. That’s one of the things I look forward to when I go for those two classes;
because you’re right beside me. =D
A/N>> idea from my tomodachi! thank you ya..i was so bored with nth to do!
Tuition classes are quite inevitable back in high school. The word tuition will appear on my schedule every single day of the week during my last couple of years in high school. But, I soon realized that tuition isn’t all bad, I get to socialize with my friends and even had hilarious incidences together while in tuition.
One of my favourite classes was Chemistry class during final year. We had tones of laugh and the mood is always very light there and sitting in front of two really cute people didn’t help me to concentrate at all. Those two were like clowns in their own little world. They would chat and I would eavesdrop. I know it’s wrong but their conversations are really interesting and I couldn’t help but chuckle every now and then. Of course, I manage to fix that bad habit as the super huge, super scary exam was approaching. One of them even snapped my back (if you get what I mean). Oh the pain!! And she always catches me of guard as she snaps it. The whole class would be staring at me after I yelp in pain. They even mentioned it in my birthday card that year. It’s so embarrassing!
Tuition classes are like challenges, especially when you have no idea what the heck the teacher is talking about. For instance, accounts class. Boy was I one severe blur case sitting in the second row beside my tomodachi. I actually spent more time chit chatting and playing a fool rather than trying to learn accounts. What amazed me was my results. Can you believe a blur case like me can get an A? Hard to believe right? I still can’t though. I mean, I was the class clown during accounts and my tomodachi should know better. She sat right beside me on my right. I lost count on how many times I ‘sembah’-ed her for letting me copy her homework. I know, I’m bad. Most of the time, she’ll be teaching me but sometimes, the both of us would be blur cases sitting behind the ‘salted fish’ (get what I mean?)
I seriously don’t mind going through those two classes again if it meant being with you again. That’s one of the things I look forward to when I go for those two classes;
because you’re right beside me. =D
A/N>> idea from my tomodachi! thank you ya..i was so bored with nth to do!
Moments
Ever felt as though you’re the only one in the world?
Ever felt as though how no one listens to you and that you’re on your own?
Ever felt how the most trivial of things can make you upset?
Ever felt how the most trivial of things can also make you happy?
Life is strange but beautiful at the same time.
Like when you’re doing something which you truly enjoy from the bottom of your
heart,
or when you’re with that one special person which can make your heart flutter.
Life is filled with ups and downs.
So, life everyday like it is your last.
Don’t be in too much of a rush to get things done, sometimes just stop and smell the
roses.
You’ll never know what pleasant surprise might find its way to you.
Who knows, you’ll actually be thankful one day in the future.
I should know, I stopped and I don’t regret it one bit.
Savour every moment.
Don't let it slip by you without your knowledge.
Ever felt as though how no one listens to you and that you’re on your own?
Ever felt how the most trivial of things can make you upset?
Ever felt how the most trivial of things can also make you happy?
Life is strange but beautiful at the same time.
Like when you’re doing something which you truly enjoy from the bottom of your
heart,
or when you’re with that one special person which can make your heart flutter.
Life is filled with ups and downs.
So, life everyday like it is your last.
Don’t be in too much of a rush to get things done, sometimes just stop and smell the
roses.
You’ll never know what pleasant surprise might find its way to you.
Who knows, you’ll actually be thankful one day in the future.
I should know, I stopped and I don’t regret it one bit.
Savour every moment.
Don't let it slip by you without your knowledge.
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